Khloe Khronicals

  • Roller coaster Ride

    It's been a while since I've posted so I don't really know where to begin. This semester is flying by. I only have about five weeks left and I've already made my schedule for my junior year of college (Wow). I'm so excited and anxious about my future in general. Every day I get more determined to make my dreams come true and I see them closer and closer. This of course takes hard work and that's what this semester has been all about. I'm working on my third film, a web series, and a show this semester. I've performed at a few open mics and have been working on my music as well. I just won a big scholarship by the name of the Studs Terkel Scholarship. It was a scholarship in the memory of a man who spent his entire life "story telling". He made sure the people who didn't have a voice were heard. This is something I strive to do each day so this scholarship really meant a lot to me. I wrote and a recorded a spoken word that I wrote just for this scholarshp. I was so thrilled to win and have the opportunity to attend and perform my piece at the big event with over 250 people attending in Studs Terkel's honor. After my performance, someone came up to me and said, "People who don't know you think you're amazing". That really stuck with me because it showed me that all of my hard work, smiles, and tears are paying off. All I want to do is inspire people. 2016 has already been a rollercoaster ride and it's only April. It's been an exhilirating and fun rollercoaster though. Sometimes things get so tough that I want to give up but I always have that voice in my head telling me to keep going because it will be worth it. My 20th birthday is coming up (April 23rd) and when I think about everything I have gone through so far in my life I can't help but smile. I smile because I overcame every single struggle. This makes me even more confident that I can conquer anything. I don't know what's in store for me but I know it's something spectacular. As I come to a close with this post, I just want to leave you with my favorite quotes: Never give up on your dreams...

    -Khloe Janel 

  • 01/04/16

    2015 was amazing. I had a lot of happy moments and not so happy moments. However, everything happens for a reason and I am thankful for everything I went through in 2015. As I sit and reflect, I've realized how much I actually accomplishd in 2015. I am constantly on the move so I don't have the chance to sit back and think about it. I can try to talk in detail about how amazing 2015 was but I honestly can't. All I can say is I learned so much in 2015 and I can't wait to see what is in store for me in 2016. I know something great is around the corner and I plan to work even harder this year to reach my dreams. :)

    -Khloe J

  • Friday. December Fourth. Two Thousand and Fifteen.

    Sometimes I get scared. I get scared that I will not reach my dreams. I see people younger than me booking jobs and I often wonder why I am not. Am I not good enough? Am I not pretty enough? Do I not fit the image of an "actress" with my weird style and natural hair? I work so hard and I just want my big break to come already. I've always been the impatient type and that is something I am working on. I've learned that I can't compare my path to any one else's. We all have different lives and my big break will eventually come as long as I do one thing: Never Give Up. I admit sometimes I wonder why I am working so hard to only constantly get rejected. I know it's becasue when I will finally reach the top of that hill, I will be able to look out into the world and think back on everything I have gone through to be there. I saw Lion King The Musiscal recently and I was blown away. Seeing people of color doing what I dream of doing is such an inspitation. Almost every show I go to has an all white cast and maybe one minority sprinkled into the ensemble. It was a beautiful sight to see. One day I know that will be me on stage, inspiring another young black girl to never give up on her dreams.

    - Khloe <3

  • Thankful

    This year I visited my hometown for Thanksgiving and I actually had the time to sit back and reflect on these past 11 months. I'm thankful for my family. If it weren't for my parents and my brothers, I don't know where I would be. They are the reason I work so hard to succeed. I want to make sure my family will never have to struggle again. I'm thankful for my healthy body. So many people are not able to go about their daily routines without the help from others. I'm thankful for the people who believe in me. I have so many people who doubt me. It's a blessing to have people who know I will make it one day. I'm thankful for the people who have and will hurt me. Because of them I am so much stronger. A year ago, I would have not imagined that I would be the beautiful, strong, and confident woman I am today. It's amazing how big of a difference one year can make. A year ago, my life changed drastically and I did not think I would ever recover from it. However, here I am today. I am able to walk down the streets of Chicago and smile. I honestly feel happier than I have ever felt. For that reason, I am thankful for the people who caused tears in my eyes because they made me the person I am today. I'm not perfect but I am working toward bettering myself each day. I have my days where I am depressed and I cry for a few minutes. However, I don't stay in that state for long. I tell myself to be happy. I quickly get out of bed, pick myself up, wipe my tears and keep pushing with a smile on my face. I know I am heading for greatness so I will keep going no matter what. I can't wait to see what 2016 has in store for me!

    -Khloe <3

  • Big Things

    I talked to my younger brother last night and he said something to me that has stuck with me all day. He said, " You're doing big things Khloe, I'm proud of you". When he said that to me, I thought about how I am not really proud of myself despite the fact that everyone else is. I think it is because I am too hard on myself. I want so badly to succeed that I don't think I have accomplished much. I am a determined overachiever and I will not feel like I have succeeded until I truly feel deep down in my gut that I have. To set the record straight, success to me does not mean I have a lot of money. Success to me means I am able to support myself off of doing what I love. Until I am able to do that, I will never feel successful. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not; but, it seems to work for me. Last night I watched the Emmy awards and was truly inspired by Viola Davis being the first African American women to win a primetime emmy for lead actress in a drama series. That was such an inspiring moment for me and I honestly was in tears. Viola Davis is somene who has worked so hard for so many years. To see her hard work finally be acknowledged was such a joy for me. As an African American actress, I have accepted that fact that I have to work ten times harder to get where I want to be. I am okay with that though because I am becoming stronger each day throughout this journey. Seeing Viola Davis nearly in tears as she made history encouraged me even more to never give up on my dreams. Even though this is a tough business, I know one day my time will come and I keep working hard each day toward that. I can't wait to inspire young black actresses like so many in this field have already done for me. I refuse to give up on my dream. Even thought it gets hard, I have this little person in my head telling me, "Khloe, you are almost there, keep pushing".

    -Khloe

  • New start

    Well, Hairspray The Musical is over. It was an amazing experience and it was a great way to start working in the theatre world professionally in Chicago. I met some amazing and talented people and I can't wait to see what is in store for the the entire cast! I started rehearsing for another show I am in that opens in September so stay tuned for further details! I also have been writing more music and poetry. Hopefully I will be able to record a single and share it to the world very soon. I have a month left until I start my sophomore year in college and I am excited. This summer has been amazing and it has taught me so much. I know if I continue working as hard as I have been I will reach my dreams. If my first summer has been like this I can only imagine what the next few months will be like!

  • Summertime!!

    My first summer in Chicago has surpassed my expectations. I have been rehearsing for Hairspray and we are a few weeks away from opening night! I am super excited and I can't wait to play one of my dreams roles! (Liil Inez). This show is going to be something special because of the vast amount of incredible and raw talent we have in this cast. I have had so much fun rehearsing for this show and I know I will be sad when it is over. On to other news, unfortunately I have tenditis in my knees so I haven't been able to run as much as I have wanted to so far this summer. Anyone who knows me knows how much I love running and it sucks that I haven't been able to. However, I will be back as soon as possible. I also recently did a photo shoot with a friend of mine. When I look at the pictures I can't help but smile. For so many years I did not feel beautiful and I was very insecure about my body, my appearance, and my hair. I never had long hair like all of my friends did and I was insecure about it for so many years. I was told by almost everyone around me that if you didn't have long hair then you weren't pretty. Dealing with all of that and an ongoing eating disorder, I suffered from depression. Yet, when I look at myself in the mirror now, I smile because I truly feel beautiful. Now that I workout regularly and I am comfortable in my own skin, I feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. Even with my short natural hair, goofy personality and awkwardness, I love who I am and I wouldn't want to be anyone else but Khloejanel. I try everyday to inspire young people who are dealing with the things I dealt with when I was younger because I know how it feels to think that nobody understands. A dream of mine is to become an inspirational speaker to the youth one day because l want everyone to feel amazing in their skin and to follow their dreams. So many people do not have a role model and someone to inspire them these days. I want to change that one person at a time.

    -Khloejanel

  • Beginning of Summer!!

    My summer has honestly started off amazing. I started rehearsing for Hairspray last week and I know the show is going to be amazing. It feels so good working with people who have the same drive and passion as me to make art. You guys will be blown away when you come see it! I also started a new job at a day care. While working there for a few weeks, I've realized how much I enjoy working with children. They bring so much light into the world and it feels nice to know I am making someone laugh and smile.This is honestly my favorite job I have had so far. These couple of things helped my summer start off right but the one event that made it one to rememeber is my recent trip to New York City for the first time to audition for the role of Dorothy in The Wiz. My trip to New York City was truly one of the best experiences I have had so far in my life. I did some sight seeing, visited Times Sqaure, won tickets to see Matilda The Musical and audioned for THE WIZ!! The audition process was something I have never experienced. I knew their would be hundreds of people auditioning so I got to the audition spot at 5:30 am and their were already about 60 people in front of me. Unfortunately it was raining all that morning but I did not let that bring me down! On my way to the venue, my taxi driver said something to me that I will never forget. He told me that he can tell I will be a movie star. I know it may not seem like much but he told me that at the right time. I was 19 years old in New York City alone in the rain auditoning for my dream role. I was nervous out of my mind but hearing that someone else believes in me took my nerves away and the four hours of waiting in line went by quickly. By 9:00 am, the line was wrapped around several corners so I was so thankful I got there early. I auditioned around 10:30 and found out I recieved a callbackl!!! I was so surpised and thankful for this opportunity. My callback went great and now I just have to wait. Visiting New York City showed me even more that I was put on this earth to perform and inspired me even more to follow my dreams. I can't wait to see what else this summer has in store for me! xoxo

    -Khloejanel

  • Almost done

    As my first year as a college student is coming to an end, I think back on all of the things that I have learned in such a short amount of time. I realized how much I love film and television acting. Their is something about having the time to actually get in tune with my emotions that excites me about television and film acting. I also realized how strong I am. I came from a small town and I didn't have anyone help me with a resume, head shot, creating my website, and auditioning. I am not saying this to brag. I am saying this to show anyone out there who thinks they can't follow their dreams that if they put their mind to it, they can do it, which brings me to my next realization. I learned how much I want to be an inspirational speaker to underprivileged children in the arts. As an art kid with little to no money, it's hard to get the necessary materials to be the most successful actress I can be. However, I worked hard and found ways to get the things I needed. I want to inspire my peers, the younger and even older generations to never give up on their dreams even when it seems like their are a million roadblocks in the way. This school year has been amazing. I accomplished way more than I thought I would. Now I have to set the bar even higher to keep climbing to the top.

  • Amazing

    This has honestly been one of the best weeks thus far in my life. I got to do so much of the things I love to do. Wednesday I was in a film shoot and this weekend I was in two films, a photoshoot, and I sung the National Anthem at Columbia College Chicago's baseball game against Depaul University. Singing the National Anthem was something I had never done so I was nervous. I had not sang in front of an audience in months so that heightened my nerves even more. However, I am really proud of how it turned out. It was not my best performance, but I am so proud of myself for going out of my comfort zone and pushing myself to try new things. It also helped that I won two tickets to a Cubs baseball game-YAY!  I also was involved in a photoshoot- something else I had never done. Yet, it was so much fun. I love being in front of the camera and I can't wait for more opportunities to be in photoshoots. Overall, this has been an amazing week. Each week I am reminded even more how much I love acting, singing, and being in front of a camera. 

    -Khloejanel