Khloe Khronicals

  • Summer Update!

         Hey Franz! I hope everyone is having a great summer. This summer has definitely been one to remember. It’s been such a stressful yet rewarding roller coaster ride for me so far. I guess the summer right after graduating from college is hectic for most people so I’m trying to remain positive and hopeful. This past week I’ve filmed three different projects, one of which was for the Showtime television show called “The Chi”. My experience filming for “The Chi” was honestly amazing. I was reminded yet again how much I love acting. Everything I go through as an actor is worth it when I’m on camera doing what I love. I met so many different people and was challenged in ways I had never been (watch the episode to find out why). Because I booked a role on my third television show, I had to join the Screen Actors Guild (SAG). I’m super nervous and excited for this next chapter in my career. I know it’s only going to get bigger and better.

        I also joined the cast of “Haymarket” with Underscore Theatre as the understudy for Lucy Parsons, the lead! I’m super thrilled for this opportunity because I have several guaranteed performances. I’ve never been a lead in a show let alone a musical. I’ve never had voice lessons. Everything with me regarding musical theatre is self taught with the exception of maybe 2 or 3 lessons my entire life. I’ve always felt insecure about my singing ability because of that. However, this opportunity and of course some confidence building showed me I’m just as talented and capable of performing in a musical alongside people with years of training and shine just as bright! I hope you all can make my performances :)

          Every day is different. I’m trying to remain present and better myself each day.  I’m so grateful for everything in my life- the good and the bad. I’m so grateful for the universe. I’m so grateful for those of you who take time out of your day to read my blogs and poetry. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

     

  • July 1st

    Today I went to a poetry workshop/artist’s talk. I was surrounded by so many beautiful black female artists, something I’m not used to. It was just us, talking about our art and our experiences as black women. It was honestly exactly what I needed. I feel rejuvenated, inspired, understood, and loved. Healing is hard. Every day is different for me. I’m figuring out what I need in order to truly heal. I realized today that I need to surround myself around more black women. I need more black female identified friends. They get me like no one ever will. I’m also starting to realize that I’m more of an extravert. I love being alone; however, I was so motivated to keep going after this day that I’m starting to think that I recharge better when I’m around people, even though I might be silent the entire time. Just being surrounded by likeminded people and listening to others inspire me more than anything. Today I connected with people who truly understand me and I feel recharged now. I feel ready to take on the world and whatever she throws at me.

    Thank you to all of the black women in my life and around the world. I love you. I believe in you. You are appreciated. You matter. You are beautiful. You are worthy. Thank you.

     

    Xoxo

    Khloe Janel

  • Summer Series

    I’m in this exciting yet weird transition in my life right now. I’m trying to find my place and purpose. I think I know what it is but I’m still not completely sure. Who knows if I ever will. Either way, I’m content with where I’m at right now. I’m trying to remain peaceful and positive. To help with that, I’m starting a new thing I’m calling the Summer Series. Basically, every Wednesday I’m going to post a new poem that represents how I’m feeling that week, that month, or even in that moment. I came up with this because I had group therapy every Wednesday for the past 8 weeks. However, now that it’s over, I want to continue doing something every Wednesday for myself and my mental health. My first poem is up and I hope you all love it as much as I do.

     Xoxo

    Khloe

  • Life After Graduation

                Hey franz! I'm going to try and blog more now that I'm out of school. Speaking of school, life after graduating has been just as hectic. The good thing is now I don't have to worry about getting to class, doing homework, and anything else school related. Now all I worry about is the many auditions, gigs, and general life related obstacles that come my way. It hasn't hit me yet that I'm actually done with school. I think it'll hit me once August comes around and I don't get a slew of emails from new professors. I'm excited and extremely nervous for what's to come. I've had so many people ask me what I plan to do now. I honestly plan to continue doing what I've been doing but even more intensely. I do plan to travel more, have more fun, make more money, and be happier. Yes, I eventually will move. But, right now I'm just taking everything day by day.

                The thought of moving has already made me super anxious. I'm nervous to start over. I'm scared I won't succeed. Overall, I'm just afraid of the change. I know it will be extremely challenging, which also makes me anxious. However, a good friend of mine once told me that if something scares you then you must do it. I keep telling myself that I'm going to succeed and this is just apart of my journey. In other news, I'm finally working on my first book of poetry! This is also something new and frightening to me, but I'm pushing through and taking the necessary steps to make it as unique and special as it can be. More details on that to come! :) Life overall has been even crazier since May 12th. On the other hand, it's been more fulfilling and peaceful already. I'm learning to take whatever life throws at me and enjoy each moment.

  • April 1st

    It's a new month, which means new opportunities, new experiences, and new discoveries. I have one month of undergrad left and I'm ecstatic! I'm excited to close this chapter in life. However, I'm enjoying the rest of this journey and remaining present during every bit of it. My 22nd birthday is coming up (04/23). I'll be doing what I do best that day, performing. I would love to see you all there as a birthday present to me! I went to Costa Rica for my last spring break and it was definitely a trip to remember. I knocked so many things off my bucket list just from that vacation. I was able to recharge, reset, and reassess my life. I learned to appreciate what I have from seeing how other people live. Everyone in Costa Rica was happy. Everyone was grateful to just be alive, something that inspired me tremendously. Being around nothing but nature, joy, and tranquility reminded me of the things that truly matter in life. Nothing is more important than your emotional and mental health. Take care of yourself. I advise everyone to travel out of the country as much as possible. Visiting Costa Rica was humbling, refreshing, beautiful, mesmerizing, and rewarding. I'm so excited for what's to come. 

    Xoxo

  • 02/15/18

           This year has already been full of so many journeys and lessons. I'm in my last semester of undergrad and I'm preparing for life after this chapter. I'm in a magnificent show, Hatfield and McCoy. Come see it if you haven't or see it again! Being in this production has become one of my favorite experiences so far in Chicago. I'm dealing with being a full time artist on top of everything. My anxiety has been at an all time high but I'm learning what helps me relieve my stress. I've gotten into meditation and yoga heavily. I write in my journal almost every day. I also make sure to make time for self care (which is usually taking myself out to eat).

           The biggest lesson I've learned so far this year is to not set high expectations for things that I can't control. I've learned to let go of things I can't control. I've learned to detach from outcomes, something that's extremely difficult for me. I'm working on remaining present and in the moment every day and I'm proud of the progress I've made. Most importantly, I’m learning to truly love myself. Every day is a new day to be better and an opportunity to start over.  I'm grateful for where I'm at in life and I know things are only going to get better.

    xoxo

    Khloe

  • First day of 2017

    I spent my last day of 2016 at home. I made myself dinner, watched a movie, and did a hair mask. I spent that time to reflect on the last year and how much my life has changed since then. 2016 was a year of self-care. I tried my hardest to heal from the past and learn to love myself completely. I still have a long way to go but I can say honestly that I love myself way more than I did when 2016 first started. I started meditating and doing yoga. Doing both of these practices helped me love myself. I made it a point to take time out of my busy day to re center myself. I removed toxic people out of my life and learned that it's okay to be alone. I actually prefer being alone now, which is a good and bad thing. It's a bad thing because I get anxiety now when I'm around big crowds. It's a good thing because I get a lot more things done now. I also took a big step in my career and decided not to do a lot of free work. I still do free work occasionally; but, most of the time, I'm getting some sort of compensation. I've managed to still get work so that's good. I also have auditioned for almost every television show that film in Chicago. Unfortunately, I haven't booked a role yet. I know I will book the right role when it's my time though.

    I'm excited and nervous for 2017. I already have a lot of stuff going on for the first half of the year. I'm doing two shows at the same time and going to school full time. I think this year will really test me. I think this year will push me even more to be great. I've worked extremely hard to get where I am now and I know it's all going to pay off. It may not be in 2017 but I know if I keep grinding, I will make it.

    I have a few goals for this year. Majority of them are personal goals but I want to share them with you. I hope everyone has a wonderful 2017. I hope everyone accomplishes their goals. I hope this country doesn't go to crap after Satan goes into office. I hope more people fight for equality. Happy New Year. XOXO

    1. Obviously keep working toward my goals. 

    2. Do a paying film.

    3. Be in a show that's paying a lot more than I'm getting paid now.

    4. Do more commercials.

    5. Sing more (Something that actually makes me nervous).

    6. Book a gig in New York.

    7. Work on self-love.

    8. More Yoga and meditation.

    9. Stop comparing myself to others.

    10. Be patient.

    11. Be on Beyonce's level of unbothered.

    12. Fight against micro aggressions and oppressive behaviors, people, etc.

    13. More volunteer work and attend more protests.

  • Three more semesters

    I had 9 shows this week so the days have been running together. It's been tiring, but I love every minute of it! I finished this semester with a 3.5 GPA and I'm pretty happy about that. This semester was a busy one. It went by so fast that I can't even remember what I did. Although it was a hectic semester, it was great. I was able to do a show, work a part time job and go to school full time. I didn't even have an extreme meltdown from all of the stress! Yay! I've been spending my winter break writing scholarship essays, doing the show, and preparing for next semester. I'm taking a winter class starting next week so I won't have to take as many during the actual spring semester. I will be doing two shows now (What is wrong with me haha) so I want next semester to be as stressless as possible. Overall, this semester was a good one. I have only three more left until I graduate, which is super exciting! I love college but I'm ready to move on. Hopefully the remaining semesters will be great. If I keep doing what I'm doing now, I know it will be!  XO

    -Khloe

  • Fall 2016

    Hi everyone! It has been five months since my last post and I'm sorry for that. This semester has been insane. I've barely had enough time to sleep. Anyway, junior year is going great! Classes are going fine. It's crazy to think that I'll be preparing to graduate this time next year. I'm really excited to move on to the next stage in my life. I mean, Columbia has been great...or okay. But, it gets in the way of shows and/or films I want to do. Speaking of acting, I haven't been in any films this semester, which sucks :(. I've been so busy with A Charlie Brown Christmas, which opened last weekend (Picture below). My experience with the show has been amazing. I've met some amazing people in the Chicago theatre scene and I've met some people I now consider friends. The audience is mainly children, which is great. It's nice to have a different type of audience who doesn't even realize when you mess up! The show runs until January 8th so please come and support if you can (I've got free comp tickets for anyone who wants them. Just message me). Seeing the stages that I perform on get bigger and bigger is such a great feeling. I have some other great news to share with you guys. I was recently cast as Dorothy in The Wiz!! It will be playing at the Apollo Theatre from February 2017-June 2017.  This is an extremely big thing for me because I've never been a lead in a musical before. I'm excited and nervous. I'm also very proud of myself. One because my hard work is paying off and two: when it comes to musical theatre, everything is self-taught. I've never taken singing lessons. I've taken a few dance classes, but my voice and dancing ability is from God, my own practice, and YouTube. I never had the money for lessons so I made my own. This isn't to say I'll never take lessons. When I get my money together and can afford it, I will for sure be in classes. For now though, it's all me :) You guys know how much I want you to see me in Charlie Brown but you HAVE to see me in The Wiz. It will probably be one of my last theatre shows in Chicago for a while because I have to focus on school during my senior year (boo) and I plan on moving once I graduate. Overall, this semester has been a rollercoaster. However, it has been one rewarding rollercoaster. I can only imagine how next semester will be. In other news: It's like 70 degrees in Chicago right now and it's really making me nervous. Please pray that my immune system makes it through this drastic weather drop that we will have in the next few weeks. lol Stay safe. Love you all.

    Peace,

    Khloe

  • G.R.O.W.T.H

    I wanted to be hip and name this blog post "All Summer Sixteen". However, I'm listening to India Arie and I thought the word Growth was a better fit to describe how my life has been going. It's been a while since I've last posted so I have a lot to update you guys with. I completed my sophomore year at Columbia with 3.6 GPA. Considering all of the outside things I was doing during the school year, I'm SO proud of myself. During my sophomore year, I was debating whether to stay in school or start my acting career full force. Yet, after talking to a few people and doing some soul searching, I realized my time will come regardless of if I'm in school or not. I have to learn how to be patient. I tend to compare myself to others who are acting too and I often ask myself, "Why am I not there when I am working just as hard". It's not my time is the answer. All I can do right now is continue to work toward my goal and work on myself along the way. I'm already in debt so I might as well finish is my logic also. In all honesty, I probably wouldn't even be able to handle it right now emotionally. Speaking of emotions, I am going to start seeing a therapist soon so I'm excited about that! I'm ready to let go of some toxic feelings and be happy with myself completely. I love myself of course, but we could all use a little extra help to love ourselves even more. Since school ended, I've been working at a daycare and auditioning. This summer has already been quite hectic and fulfilling at the same time. Hectic because I'm not getting much sleep and I'm constantly on the go. Fulfilling becasue I've been cast in a webseries that will be filming in August, I've been auditioning for some well known theatres, and I was just notified that I was the winner of the Vans College Open Mic Series!!! This may not seem like a big deal but it is such an accomplishment for me. I was chosen out of a ton of college students from New York, Boston, and Chicago. I also performed an original spoken word. I've always felt like my spoken words were not very good because I don't sound like a typical poet. However, I learned that is why I stand out. I'm different and obviously good at it. As the winner, I recieved a VIP expereince in which me and a friend get an all expense paid trip to NEW YORK CITY!!! I'm so excited because I've wanted to go back to NYC for a long time and actually enjoy it. The last time I went was for an audition and I was stressing out the whole time. This time I actually get to check my future home out completely. It's only June and my summer has already been a rollercoaster ride. On the other hand, I wouldn't want it any other way.

    -Khloe Janel