Khloe Khronicals

  • 10/11/2018

         Last week I had the privilege of working with Erasing the Distance, a theater company that addresses mental health. 5 actors, including myself shared some of their signature stories to students at Robert Morris University over a two-day period. Each piece performed was informative, inspirational, and powerful.  We had a talkback after each performance and it was amazing to see how many people felt comfortable sharing their personal stories. I was touched and in awe at the amount of resilience so many of these folks possessed, considering everything they've gone through. It also put things in perspective for me and reminded me that their are always people who have it worse than you. Even though I have my own struggles, it made me more grateful for what I have and where I'm at in life.

         As a person who struggles with anxiety and depression, I've always wanted to work with this company. We shouldn't be afraid to talk about mental health considering so many people struggle with it every day. I believe the more we talk about, the more people will seek help and know they are not alone. I have a lot of aspirations. One of my main goals is to simply inspire others. Performing a piece that was so near and dear to my heart was an honor and I could feel the impact it made on the audience. I hope to keep helping and inspiring people.

         In other exciting news, I was asked back on the Netflix show, "Easy"! Watch out for me on season 3! :) This is so exciting because this is my first time making a second appearance on a TV show. Hopefully this means something big is in store for me. I'm speaking it into the universe either way!

     

    xoxo

    Khlo

  • Where did the year go?

           I've been asking myself for a few days: Where did the year go? It's crazy to think we only have 3 months left of 2018. This year flew by and has truly tested my strength, resilience, and faith. I'm anxious and excited for what's to come. This is my first time not having to go to school in about 17 years and I love the feeling. I love having more time to myself and more time to work on my art. On the other hand, I'm so used to being extremely busy that I don't know what to do when I have free time. I'm figuring out what I love to do. I'm learning my hobbies, my likes and dislikes for the first time. I think I prefer being super busy because I don't have to deal with myself. With me constantly being on the go for the past few years, I've been able to ignore a lot of things. Now that I'm alone more than usual, I have no choice but to face myself. It's scary but I think it's going to be rewarding. I feel like I'm growing, maturing, and becoming more of the person I've always wanted to be.

    xoxo

    Khlo

  • New Month = New Blessings

           It’s always exciting for me when a new month rolls around! I feel so motivated to make it better than the last and be better than I was the last month. It seemed like 2018 just started and now we’re 8 months in. A good friend of mine told me about a vison board she created for herself and it inspired me to do the same. Basically it’s a list of goals that you put somewhere in your room as a daily reminder. I did a half year mark check in to see if I’ve accomplished any of my new year’s resolutions. To my surprise, I’ve actually accomplished a lot of them! It hasn’t  been easy and I have a long way to go. However, I finally took the time to sit down and pat myself on the back. I’ve accomplished so much in my 22 years of living. I’m going to reward myself soon and take a mini vacation somewhere new.

           Right now I’ve been extremely focused on Haymarket, which opens this Friday! I’m super nervous about it because I had a short amount of time to learn such a big show. On the other hand, it’s the challenge I asked the universe for and I know I’m going to do so well! I love being pushed and this experience is for sure doing that. I know the universe wouldn’t put something in my life that I couldn’t handle so I’m grateful and eager to learn from this.

           In other news, I booked a role on Chicago Fire! I’ve wanted to be on one of these shows for so long!! I’m so grateful and thrilled! Chicago P.D was the first TV show I ever auditioned for three years ago. I’m so happy for this blessing! Alright franz, I should go work on my lines now. I hope each and every last one of you are accomplishing your goals. I hope August  is a fulfilling and beautiful month for you.

  • Summer Update!

         Hey Franz! I hope everyone is having a great summer. This summer has definitely been one to remember. It’s been such a stressful yet rewarding roller coaster ride for me so far. I guess the summer right after graduating from college is hectic for most people so I’m trying to remain positive and hopeful. This past week I’ve filmed three different projects, one of which was for the Showtime television show called “The Chi”. My experience filming for “The Chi” was honestly amazing. I was reminded yet again how much I love acting. Everything I go through as an actor is worth it when I’m on camera doing what I love. I met so many different people and was challenged in ways I had never been (watch the episode to find out why). Because I booked a role on my third television show, I had to join the Screen Actors Guild (SAG). I’m super nervous and excited for this next chapter in my career. I know it’s only going to get bigger and better.

        I also joined the cast of “Haymarket” with Underscore Theatre as the understudy for Lucy Parsons, the lead! I’m super thrilled for this opportunity because I have several guaranteed performances. I’ve never been a lead in a show let alone a musical. I’ve never had voice lessons. Everything with me regarding musical theatre is self taught with the exception of maybe 2 or 3 lessons my entire life. I’ve always felt insecure about my singing ability because of that. However, this opportunity and of course some confidence building showed me I’m just as talented and capable of performing in a musical alongside people with years of training and shine just as bright! I hope you all can make my performances :)

          Every day is different. I’m trying to remain present and better myself each day.  I’m so grateful for everything in my life- the good and the bad. I’m so grateful for the universe. I’m so grateful for those of you who take time out of your day to read my blogs and poetry. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

     

  • July 1st

    Today I went to a poetry workshop/artist’s talk. I was surrounded by so many beautiful black female artists, something I’m not used to. It was just us, talking about our art and our experiences as black women. It was honestly exactly what I needed. I feel rejuvenated, inspired, understood, and loved. Healing is hard. Every day is different for me. I’m figuring out what I need in order to truly heal. I realized today that I need to surround myself around more black women. I need more black female identified friends. They get me like no one ever will. I’m also starting to realize that I’m more of an extravert. I love being alone; however, I was so motivated to keep going after this day that I’m starting to think that I recharge better when I’m around people, even though I might be silent the entire time. Just being surrounded by likeminded people and listening to others inspire me more than anything. Today I connected with people who truly understand me and I feel recharged now. I feel ready to take on the world and whatever she throws at me.

    Thank you to all of the black women in my life and around the world. I love you. I believe in you. You are appreciated. You matter. You are beautiful. You are worthy. Thank you.

     

    Xoxo

    Khloe Janel

  • Summer Series

    I’m in this exciting yet weird transition in my life right now. I’m trying to find my place and purpose. I think I know what it is but I’m still not completely sure. Who knows if I ever will. Either way, I’m content with where I’m at right now. I’m trying to remain peaceful and positive. To help with that, I’m starting a new thing I’m calling the Summer Series. Basically, every Wednesday I’m going to post a new poem that represents how I’m feeling that week, that month, or even in that moment. I came up with this because I had group therapy every Wednesday for the past 8 weeks. However, now that it’s over, I want to continue doing something every Wednesday for myself and my mental health. My first poem is up and I hope you all love it as much as I do.

     Xoxo

    Khloe

  • Life After Graduation

                Hey franz! I'm going to try and blog more now that I'm out of school. Speaking of school, life after graduating has been just as hectic. The good thing is now I don't have to worry about getting to class, doing homework, and anything else school related. Now all I worry about is the many auditions, gigs, and general life related obstacles that come my way. It hasn't hit me yet that I'm actually done with school. I think it'll hit me once August comes around and I don't get a slew of emails from new professors. I'm excited and extremely nervous for what's to come. I've had so many people ask me what I plan to do now. I honestly plan to continue doing what I've been doing but even more intensely. I do plan to travel more, have more fun, make more money, and be happier. Yes, I eventually will move. But, right now I'm just taking everything day by day.

                The thought of moving has already made me super anxious. I'm nervous to start over. I'm scared I won't succeed. Overall, I'm just afraid of the change. I know it will be extremely challenging, which also makes me anxious. However, a good friend of mine once told me that if something scares you then you must do it. I keep telling myself that I'm going to succeed and this is just apart of my journey. In other news, I'm finally working on my first book of poetry! This is also something new and frightening to me, but I'm pushing through and taking the necessary steps to make it as unique and special as it can be. More details on that to come! :) Life overall has been even crazier since May 12th. On the other hand, it's been more fulfilling and peaceful already. I'm learning to take whatever life throws at me and enjoy each moment.

  • April 1st

    It's a new month, which means new opportunities, new experiences, and new discoveries. I have one month of undergrad left and I'm ecstatic! I'm excited to close this chapter in life. However, I'm enjoying the rest of this journey and remaining present during every bit of it. My 22nd birthday is coming up (04/23). I'll be doing what I do best that day, performing. I would love to see you all there as a birthday present to me! I went to Costa Rica for my last spring break and it was definitely a trip to remember. I knocked so many things off my bucket list just from that vacation. I was able to recharge, reset, and reassess my life. I learned to appreciate what I have from seeing how other people live. Everyone in Costa Rica was happy. Everyone was grateful to just be alive, something that inspired me tremendously. Being around nothing but nature, joy, and tranquility reminded me of the things that truly matter in life. Nothing is more important than your emotional and mental health. Take care of yourself. I advise everyone to travel out of the country as much as possible. Visiting Costa Rica was humbling, refreshing, beautiful, mesmerizing, and rewarding. I'm so excited for what's to come. 

    Xoxo

  • 02/15/18

           This year has already been full of so many journeys and lessons. I'm in my last semester of undergrad and I'm preparing for life after this chapter. I'm in a magnificent show, Hatfield and McCoy. Come see it if you haven't or see it again! Being in this production has become one of my favorite experiences so far in Chicago. I'm dealing with being a full time artist on top of everything. My anxiety has been at an all time high but I'm learning what helps me relieve my stress. I've gotten into meditation and yoga heavily. I write in my journal almost every day. I also make sure to make time for self care (which is usually taking myself out to eat).

           The biggest lesson I've learned so far this year is to not set high expectations for things that I can't control. I've learned to let go of things I can't control. I've learned to detach from outcomes, something that's extremely difficult for me. I'm working on remaining present and in the moment every day and I'm proud of the progress I've made. Most importantly, I’m learning to truly love myself. Every day is a new day to be better and an opportunity to start over.  I'm grateful for where I'm at in life and I know things are only going to get better.

    xoxo

    Khloe

  • First day of 2017

    I spent my last day of 2016 at home. I made myself dinner, watched a movie, and did a hair mask. I spent that time to reflect on the last year and how much my life has changed since then. 2016 was a year of self-care. I tried my hardest to heal from the past and learn to love myself completely. I still have a long way to go but I can say honestly that I love myself way more than I did when 2016 first started. I started meditating and doing yoga. Doing both of these practices helped me love myself. I made it a point to take time out of my busy day to re center myself. I removed toxic people out of my life and learned that it's okay to be alone. I actually prefer being alone now, which is a good and bad thing. It's a bad thing because I get anxiety now when I'm around big crowds. It's a good thing because I get a lot more things done now. I also took a big step in my career and decided not to do a lot of free work. I still do free work occasionally; but, most of the time, I'm getting some sort of compensation. I've managed to still get work so that's good. I also have auditioned for almost every television show that film in Chicago. Unfortunately, I haven't booked a role yet. I know I will book the right role when it's my time though.

    I'm excited and nervous for 2017. I already have a lot of stuff going on for the first half of the year. I'm doing two shows at the same time and going to school full time. I think this year will really test me. I think this year will push me even more to be great. I've worked extremely hard to get where I am now and I know it's all going to pay off. It may not be in 2017 but I know if I keep grinding, I will make it.

    I have a few goals for this year. Majority of them are personal goals but I want to share them with you. I hope everyone has a wonderful 2017. I hope everyone accomplishes their goals. I hope this country doesn't go to crap after Satan goes into office. I hope more people fight for equality. Happy New Year. XOXO

    1. Obviously keep working toward my goals. 

    2. Do a paying film.

    3. Be in a show that's paying a lot more than I'm getting paid now.

    4. Do more commercials.

    5. Sing more (Something that actually makes me nervous).

    6. Book a gig in New York.

    7. Work on self-love.

    8. More Yoga and meditation.

    9. Stop comparing myself to others.

    10. Be patient.

    11. Be on Beyonce's level of unbothered.

    12. Fight against micro aggressions and oppressive behaviors, people, etc.

    13. More volunteer work and attend more protests.